When you have insomnia, you're never really asleep, and you're never really awake.

There isn't enough rain in my ice.
So yesterday I was busy on client visits most of the day. It always feels good to me when I show up at a customer site and help them with their issues. I dunno maybe I'm crazy, but sometimes it's like being a superhero. I love meeting and working with new people, and when you're there to "save the day" they're always happy to see you. :) Most of the time it doesn't take hours and hours to get the problem solved, usually the reason I'm out for the whole day is travel time. Traffic is a bear around this city sometimes, it's a fairly old town and streets are all wonky and small. (not that I drive a huge SUV or anything.)

I did get my personal site issues straightened out with the registrar and all that last night, so now it's at least resolving. I got the webmail set up and address forwarding for family members etc, now I just have to finish putting the content in place. I'm glad that's finally marginally functional.

Had dinner with some old friends of mine and we sat at the restaurant chatting till almost 11pm. Unfortunately for me I have a 35 mile drive home from downtown Cincinnati, so it was a good 11:45 by the time I got home. Okay, maybe it was actually midnight because I stopped at my post office box on the way. I live in a teeny tiny village way east of here. Farm country, and I have to say that Ohio is very pretty in the autumn.

My dad got back into town yesterday so I think I'm gonna' spend some time with him this weekend. I'm not sure how long he's here for though, it's usually not more than a week or so before he's gone again for 5-6 weeks. I'll take my cat Lucy over to see him tonight I think. For some silly reason, she completely adores my dad. I guess it's not silly cuz he is a nice guy and all, but it's strange for her to be so lovy with someone other than me.

Anyway it's a dreary rainy day here today and I love it, I have no idea why rainy days make me happy. At lunch when it's raining sometimes I go out in the parking garage and sit in my car with the windows down to eat. It's got something to do with the smell of the air I guess. I don't suppose I've mentioned that autumn is my favorite time of year now have I? :)

meow

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When the CAPS LOCK light is out, you never know if you're going to scream.
No, I don't know why I feel the need to put silly titles on weblog updates. I always have, and probably always will as I do tend to be a creature of habit. Bear with me won't you? :)

It's official, I'm hooked on City of Heros. CURSE YOU TOM! :) I was thinking that playing this game is going to seriously cut into my nerd time until I realized that gaming -is- nerd time. So I'll skip my OS nerdiness at home for a while, it doesn't mean I resign my position in the geek club. :)

Anyway. Tom and I have been discussing this relocation for a long while now, and we've agreed that I should move to Phoenix instead of him coming here. Every day I check for openings in the Phoenix office in desperate hope that an SSE position will come available. Of course I'm sure lots of other people would be interested in moving there too, but hey what can 'ya do right? I can't help I fell in love with him. You can hold him responsible for it, I know I certainly do. :) I'll keep checking every day though and keep hoping.

So the reason I have the Fight Club quote at the top of the blog is that I don't sleep very well. It's been a problem for, well, as long as I can remember right now. A number of years. I know I had the problem before I came to work here, and I've had it off and on since. Sometimes it goes away for a period of weeks or months and I sleep really well, but typically I only get a few hours of sleep a night. That's if I'm lucky.

The lack of sleep causes me to be a little grumpy some mornings. Well, I'm not sure if grumpy is the right word for it. I don't snap at people or anything, I just tend to be 'not very talkative' and caught up in thoughts. People mistake it for being grumpy, but in reality it's closer to being intensely focused on something. You know, what needs to be done for the day, for the coming week, long term plans (moving to Arizona!), working out world peace and solving the humanitarian issues around the globe. Important stuff.

It always happens though that at some point in my intensely focused little world, something steps in and yanks me back to reality and makes me smile. All the problems and worries fade away and I'm happy again and I come into work humming a song or something. :) This morning I got in my car and plugged in my Zen (mp3 player), and began the ~1.25 hour drive to the local office. (I could work from home if I wanted, have I mentioned how much I love this place? :) )

In the midst of my moodiness, one of the best songs in the world queue's up in the player (set on random), and I start to grin. :) It's as if God was reading my mind and decided to make me laugh. Everyone has probably heard "If I had a million dollars" by Barenaked Ladies, but if you haven't I suggest buying the cd or calling your local radio station and asking them to play it. It always makes me smile, who knows? It might do the same for you.
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It's another Monday
Well I'm realizing that I'm getting old or something. It was Friday night at 8pm and I was sitting on my bed with the laptop working on a webpage instead of being out with friends. The funny thing is, it was just a passing thought and I went back to work on the page. Who cares if I'm getting old? As long as I'm having fun right?

Saturday mom and I went up to Costco and picked up a few items. Played phone tag with Tom while he was busy with the Coronation stuff for the SCA. I think HE thinks that it bothers me to talk with him 5x a day, but really it just makes me smile and be happy. I guess everyone feels that way though when they have a partner/love that fits just perfectly.

Lucy. The Cat. Sometimes I have no idea how to deal with her, she acts like a rambunctious 3 year old. I used to think it was only when I didn't pay enough attention to her, but then when I DO pay lots of attention to her she just gets even rowdier. (is that a word?) Anyway. She knocked a little figurine off the top of the refrigerator and of course it shattered. :: sigh ::

So on Sunday I was feeling a little over-emotional and whiny. I decided to go out for a drive and ended up way the heck down in Florence Mall. I happened across the EB gaming store and picked up a copy of City Of Heros for PC. After a few performance hiccups on my laptop, Tom helped me get it straightened out and we got to play together for a few hours. Amazing how time flies when you're gaming. :)

I've created two characters already and I think I like the "Blaster" character best so far. The Blaster character tends to fire impressive shots from far away that do lots of damage, but the char isn't very resistant to damage itself. er. Ooops. sorry. didn't mean to nerd-out all of a sudden!

Unfortunately, I think Tom got me hooked on this game and now I'll never leave the house on weekends or after work.

Which reminds me this is my On-Call week. Better charge the pager up just in case.

So it's been a busier than normal morning today, more phone calls and emails and a few little issues here & there. I gotta' say, I love doing this job. I wish sometimes that there were more calls to take, but then I realize I don't get slammed every day because we make a good product and that's a Good Thing(TM).

Now it's time to finish my lunch and get back to work.

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Everybody should keep something in mind...
Most of the people I know are immature children, and I'm seriously worried about wether or not they'll behave themselves when commenting. :)

I shouldn't HAVE to delete my blog just because they can't pretend to be grownups! But I will if I have to.

Gees. I sound like a cranky mommy now. "Don't make me come over there!" ;-)

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So anyway, happy Friday and all that. I should be out at lunch right now, but I decided I'd put this up and finish updating some cases before I get food. Which reminds me that working in a field office is not nearly so much fun as the big campuses @ Sun are. We don't have cafeterias out here etc. .:sigh:.
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I couldn't have said it better myself...
[AJ_Z0] Since the blog is just a perturbation on the good ol' personal web site, you can expect the same disordered, unmaintained, dull, rambling drivel.

Thanks Aj, I took the liberty of fixing your typo. :)
-k
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